December...

Insert long sigh here!

December is bittersweet for me. Christmas is always a fun time. We love decorating and shopping!

It's also quite bitter for me, though. December 3rd, 2007 was the estimated due date for the first baby we lost. We should have a 1 year old. The second baby we lost would have been due around the 19th. I would love to be very pregnant right now. There is a quote that has popped up in many places that says, "When your parents die, you are an orphan. When your partner dies, you are a widow. When your child dies, there are no words for that." There really are no words to describe the way I feel. I will never get to see, hold or smell those babies. This happens to so many women every day. It's just not fair.

Sorry to have such a downer post today. We are so blessed and I really can't complain. I guess December is just hard....